Beloved COTC Family,
It's always a challenge to put into words...all the
feelings, emotions, and experiences of the year. Not just to describe them
or tell about them but to connect the dots and better understand how and why
they've led me to the here and now. This years' no exception and though
there are certain things still to be revealed, I feel a calm peaceful
freedom that I have never experienced before...
"They" say that we are free to think freeing thoughts and that the only "jailkeeper"
we ever have is within our own minds. I have believed this to be true for
some time now...but have struggled to understand why I felt so trapped .
More and more I see that it has been me standing in my own way all along...
I stood in my own way by allowing what others wanted, needed, and expected
of me to dictate what I want, need, and expect for myself. I feel free now
because I have cut the ties that I so long ago tied myself...I know that we
are each responsible for our own happiness. If someone decides to be angry,
sad, or victimized I cannot change their mind. Not following my own heart
will only lead to 2 people that are angry, sad & victimized etc...I had
unknowingly given up my God Given right to live...for
who I am & who I represent I make a new choice now.
With a new year only days away I feel the calm excitement that goes along
with knowing all of my needs are abundantly met and decisions are guided
each and every step of the way as Spirit asks me once again to have faith
and to follow his lead away from where I am now... away from NJ.
It has been brewing for a while. The vision has changed many times as
different signs have appeared along the way. I don't know how the vision I
now have may change from now forward - but I am considering moving out west,
possibly to Oregon...
I hope this will serve as sufficient for my annual up-date...
I'm sure you had a special
Christmas and look forward to hearing back from you soon. Happy New Year
too!!
Lovingly,
Rev. Jennifer Lynn
Ippolito, Hackensack, New Jersey ♥
December 2007
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